December 18, 2009

Christmas Failure

Much failure in my posts lately. I have to admit, I feel like a bit of a Christmas failure this year. Not only is my house not decorated for Christmas, it's not even clean. What is it that everybody else gets that I don't? Did I miss the decorate-y gene? The good housewife gene? I visit my friend's houses and everything is all organized, no clutter, no random cat toys strewn across the floor, all of their wedding pictures are catelogued in a picturesque album and framed and hanging nicely on the wall. I'm creative. I'm resourceful. So why is it my house never manages to look better than "tidy". Why does my laundry pile up like crazy in our bedroom? What do other people do-- hide their laundry? Never dirty a dish? I have a definite case of the not-good-enoughs today. My blog isn't good enough. My knitting isn't good enough. Something lacking in my sense of style. My cooking. My singing.
*smacks herself*
Ok, that's better.

December 12, 2009

UBER FAILURE!!! and an Interesting Twist

Pehaps my last blog was a little too prophtic. Perhaps I should not have included Christmas Present in a failure blog. After working many hours on said Present, I felt I was near the finish line. I pulled out the whole thing in my exhuberance to show my husband and in that shocking moment, I saw it.
A Fatal Flaw.
The kind of flaw that can not be remidied by ripping back or clever finishing.
This kind of flaw requires complete Starting Over.
At this discovery, I was depressed.
My husband bought me a pizza.
I am now rethinking the entire Present and hopefully the re-vamped version will be ready by Christmas. This will probably require me to knit every waking moment until Christmas, but hey. I'm a knitter. I like to knit. IT CAN BE DONE!
And anyway, this is how I function. Deadlines. Pressure. Good for Stephanie.

As for the twist...
My parents were divorced when I was a baby. My dad is not the sort of person with whom it is healthy or even really feasible to have a relationship. As a result, I really don't know anyone or anything about his side of the family.
Until yesterday.
Yesterday, I recieved a Friend Request and a Facebook message from a woman who turns out to be my Aunt. It turns out I am the only girl child from all of my dad's siblings, therefore, her only niece. She had been looking for me and for my brother for a while, but since my maiden name is so common, she had not had much luck. In the end, however, it was my middle name provided the clue.
My middle name is Omeda. I have never met anyone in my life with that name, middle or otherwise. I used my middle initial on my Target registry, which apparently appeared when my name was Googled. From then, it was a quick Facebook search and TaDa! A Connection!
We exchanged a few messages and then talked last night on the phone. It was a great expirience, although the thought of having a whole 'nother family is a bit overwhelming. She might visit before the end of the month (on an already-planned California vacation).
So. There you go. If you attempt to contact me before Christmas, I can't talk to you. I will be knitting.

December 9, 2009


So, the NaNoWriMo thing was a failure. This year at least. I think it was because my novel was boring and I hated my characters. I kept trying to make them do interesting things, but then they just became whiney and I hated them more. So maybe next year, I'll write a fantasy novel. I can see that being more feasable for me. That way, if things get boring, I can just send a hostile race of aliens to attack the planet, causing interesting story lines for all!
I am so close to finishing the Christmas Present. I really wish I could blog ablout it because it would make such good blog knitting, but unfortunately, the recipient reads this blog (in fact, I think she's the only one..) and so therefore, no details can be disclosed until Present is actually finished and delivered.
In the meantime, I knit a lace hat, of which there can be no pictures because I have no camera. I mean, I have my Blackberry camera, but it does not take very good pictures. I'm a little ashamed of them. I have been looking at digital cameras (to get for my husband, of course) but they are a tad bit expensive. I seem to remember them being cheaper, but then again, the last camera I owned was 4 mexapixels. The ones in the store have like 10.
Anyway, perhaps by next post, Present will done, Camera will attained, and Novel Failure will be forgotten. A girl can dream...